
This is How I feel right now. I am frazzled. Worn out and over tired. Bad neighbor, hacking & stalking. Out $400 to my web designer, no web page. No business cards. Have to find someone fast & start all over! Local store carrying my designs never gave me a penny. Ever. She sold something the first day she got my things. Never ever got back to me. She moved new location & didn't tell me. My family found out & didn't want to tell me. I had gone through enough. Now she is totally out of business & all my designs that were about $2,000.(Lamps, benches/stools, canvas paintings etc... Nothing! & once again... I felt bad & didn't bother her due to the fact that I owned a boutique & knew its not easy and my rent was over 2,000 a month Just for the store. I felt bad & figured she'll pay me when she can. No worries. Times are tough... been there. Im dealing w/ my own things. No hurry.
That's was a few yrs. ago. Now She is totally gone! No phone calls and emails??? Did she ever get mine? Did she even send any to me? Who knows. Im screwed big time from too many. I am over it. Never again. ohhhh I wonder who has my things? Do they know I made them. I created them. My heart & sould went into those pieces. I reached out & helped someone starting out. Again, takers... Who paid for the pieces??? & I never saw a dime? Is she ok with that? I have nothing. not one dime to my name. not anymore. NOT mine Joelle's. Thank You. I have 5 girls. One day, I could be homeless. Not good takers! not good for little girls whom could have had more. They had so much before we moved here. Private schools, country club for 15 yrs. I coached cheerleading, husband coached golf. they played tennis & golf. We had severla Au paires whom lived with us, that was fun learning from diff. countries. Lived in Golf community, had great friends. We moved, to start over after 9/11 & his business was suffering like everyone in that town, Move to better market,
be close to family. It will be warm & sunny & out of the snow belt. What the hell did I do? I miss everyone back home. I miss good people that cared about us. I moved them into this hell!
I moved next to horrible neighbors. Thank God for the wonderful boyfriends & good friends they have had. They make time fun & happy. However.......
I have not had a REAL job in 19 years. Not one day though have I sat & did nothing. Always too busy. Always volunteering & giving away,donating way too much, coaching cheerleading, reading & testing little kids at school. Always a big donation from me at the Heart Balls, I do not sit & eat bon bons. never watched soaps... I never watch tv.
You know what I do? I raise my children. help other children whose parents are too busy. I stay up late reading & planning online, creating and designing things to be so different to have others TAKE from me. Run with my ideas, style and even same words. TAKE TAKE TAKE.
Do you not feel dirty & lazy?
My girls & all their activities. My husband & his own business & the drama with that & us???? :(
MY online business & links are all messed up due to this real A HOLE of a sissy boy loser geek stalker! My computer is on, then blocks me from online access. Phones get shut off for a few hours too. I get creepy twitter messages... "do you use Google voice?" can you hear me? I can hear you. GPS? ummm just really strange computer terms that he knows I will look up to bother me. & make me crazy. Well, have fun sissy boy behind your big screen. It won't last long. You'll slip. They always do.I am glad I filed a police report the day someone left on my birthday!The Police recommended I do that to protect myself. Go ahead with your "defimantion rambel" DO you Mrs. Smarty pants know what that means? Making up lies to ruin ones reputation. Listen MR. Lady, Im speaking straight up truth! & not even all of it. Im being too kind. YOu have no clue what all that sick shyte head has done. or maybe you do! WHY else would you pick up & move fast cause of little ol' me saying something bad about him? come on. I didn't say anything then. Guess what dummy??!!! I had every right to, so now what? Grown men aren't suppose to act like your mrs. husband. ewwwww it is all wrong.
I do not care if you watch me. Have fun. Whatever! However.. IF I find out more. You have anything to do with my family. My girls. Anything. I will throw out everything I have. Give every thing away & I will make sure Your life is a living hell. I will make sure you pay. dearly! Trust me. My girls are my everything & if YOU sick creeper loser have pictures, videos or link you to GPS (hmmmmmm isn't that your families business ~ motorola gps bla bla bla????) YOU know they keep records of transactions of everything YOU bought online right? ALL those cool James Bond type gadget stores you talked about LOSER! I will find out. YOU will pay. YOU will never have a job! You will be put away!!!You will NEVER play your cyber games again. EVER. I know someone whom could be doing all this. I have many reasons to think it is him. Who else? & why? There are a lot of reasons & evidence to his behaviors. His own stupid actions & comments. Stupid!
I am sooooo over it. This has been going on for 2 yrs. & only getting worse.
It is like a game coming online. Not fun. Annoying. Always something pops up or I find new files/ folders with nothing in them any more and no network icon( I can not get that Network out of my computer. I do not want to "network"/share from my computer! Its a daily struggle to click "discovery & file share" things... no sound icon anymore.black screens. remote this & that? double icons on my toolbar, ohh just a bunch of things & if your on your computer as much as me, you know it. You know when things change, now I find a lot. I know its not right. I do not have authority over a bunch of stuff. I share with NO ONE yet I do???Yep cleaned computers, rebooted, took in twice. Paid for firewalls & all that. New computer. However, all of our computers are messed up!??? grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Sorry, I just had to get it out. I'm done.
I am dealing with so much all at once, You have to wonder ~ WHY? Why me? Really, what is the test? Have I passed? Can it be over all ready? Please. I have things to do. Really. A lot. A lot of things on hold, just waiting to be finished. I am so excited to move forward but there seems to be so much holding me back at the very last minute. Always. I am really done with it all. I am ready to move forward. I have to. You have no idea how bad I MUST move forward. Now is my time. I can not wait until something worse might happen. So Please anyone reading this.. Please send me your positive energy, good wishes, happy thoughts... whatever... just send me something good. So I can focus on the good things. All the pretty details. Designs & style... That's All I need to focus on & of course my beautiful girls They need their mommy happy & motivated.

Ok.....This is just one bad book that needs to be closed. Thank You.
I think I got it out. I had to. No one here listens or cares & really, just done with it all too.
it just got bad this week with more online crap & blocking me from going ONLINE & then my sites. Just a bunch all at once.
It is time to move forward. I was sooo excited about the opening of
Dimples & Dandelions and creating some wonderful designs for her.
She is everything I am looking for. Simply Charming. Perfect mix. Absolute precious mom & baby boutique. WHY these things had to get in the way??? I do not know. I do know... I must move forward and make things happen. I need to. I have to. This is all I know.I gave up some fabulous opportunities to do business with one of the best in the business out west. Retail & Entertainment. She begged me. Offered to pay for me to come out there with my girls. I gave up alot.Now what?
I am scared to death to think what I would have to do if anything else could happen. SO Time to move forward.
No more drama. No more negative crap. I must Run the other way. I might be running in circles, but I'll just have to JUMP out. Look for something to hold on to and run with it.


So it is now time once again to put on my thinking cap, really think up some sweet & charming designs. Create and move forward so I can bring forth more treasures & keep growing, learning & making something happen with all this.
Baby, Child and everyone whom appreciates pretty things. As my girls grow, so do I. I hope you will all be proud of me as I am with my girls.
Sweet Dreams ~ Joelle XOXO
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